One of my popular requests, this is one that I am willing to be the pee-er rather than the pee-ee. More clearly, I rather give the shower than take it myself. For those still confused on what this is all about, golden showers is the act of urinating on someone or the drinking urine in an erotic context. The fetish usually requires two people, where one is the peeing on the other; in some cases both urinate simultaneously on the each other.
I have done this for some clients, and it was rather fun watching a guy enjoy himself under my stream. In a more analytical/metaphysical point of view, the heat of my urine is from my own body, and as heat is a form of energy (and the urine is the vector in which it is transported) one could say that a golden shower is a way of transferring energy from one lover to another. Enjoying someone enjoying it is pleasure resonance, which is completely dependent on the situation. Perhaps I think about such things too much, maybe to distract myself from the fact that normally waste products from our body is generally thought of as disgusting. Blame me for having an open mind.
When someone calls and asks for permission to pee on my and make me drink it, I refuse. In this case I do not particularly enjoy it, and if this is what my potential client wants, then this is humiliation. Pleasure resonance is not occurring, and in someway demeaning to me. At this point in my career as an escort I do not wish to demean myself by doing something I don't want to do. The act of being urinated on is not demeaning if you like it, but forced to drink it against your will is a violation, and money is not enough to justify that violation.
When someone throws money in your face to make you do something you don't want to do, my awareness is on the underlying motivation for the desire. Is it a thrill to win a negotiation? To feel powerful to make others do what you want? To enjoy seeing others in displeasure? In any case, it is not my cup of tea, and unlike some others in the sex industry, I am not in desperate need for cash to put aside my principle.
One guy called and asked me how much to do bareback, because "everyone has their price". Unfortunately for him, the only price is to be my exclusive lover, who is the only one who has that privilege. I didn't tell him that, though. I just said no, and to find someone else to do it. The sad part is, someone will say yes to him.
I feel grateful to have a clientele that has supported me all these years to become who I am today. I realize that it is not every escort that can say that, and I know quite a few over the years. Perhaps by selecting good clients and becoming their friends, the adage "you are the company you keep" holds true. And these people I would gladly pee on if they asked me too.
Ronielle
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