Clients With Prostate Cancer

A man's disease, prostate cancer is very scary despite the fact that it is usually non-lethal. But the risks of complications such as incontinence, impotence, and the requirement for a colostomy bag is enough to cause serious concern. Listening to my clients' concerns on this matter, before and after their surgery, is something of a relatively common occurrence in a decade of escorting. Talking about it helps relieve mental stress a few degrees, especially in the arms of a male lover. Who knows, I may even get diagnosed with prostate cancer one of these days, and it may very well be me talking to my escort in the far future about it. Moral support and an attentive ear goes a long way, and sometime I wish I could do something about it, but I can't.

So to those brave men who will be soon going under the knife, please know that I am thinking of you and wishing for a successful surgery and a fast recovery.

Sincerly,

Ronielle

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Spring Fever Anticipation

Here we are again, on the verge of good weather as winter blows over in its last attempt to freeze our nuts off. With sunny days and cold nights, sexual energy is building up everywhere; so what to do when you are hot and bothered?

First of all, don't hold back your sexual tension until it drives you nuts. I know the type: guys calling me to make an appointment for NOW or NEVER! The sexual tension reaches across the phone, and unfortunately my schedule is made the day before and I rarely have same-day openings. The smart ones realize that regular sex prevents this blue-balled devil from rearing its head, and schedules an appointment ahead of time in anticipation.

According to one of my favorite sex books, 'Zen Sex' describes the ritual of setting a future date of sexual pleasure, and savoring the feeling of anticipation as being 'alive'. Spontaneous sex is awesome too, but can be inconvenient at times, and rejection can create a hurt when logic fails to communicate with the penis. How to heal this pain? Schedule sex, and anticipate it. Enjoy the wait instead of showing penis-induced frustration to your partner (who will most likely consider it a turn-off and immature).

Make a date, prepare yourself for the fun to begin, and enjoy the full effect of lovemaking; planning, preparing, anticipating, savoring and exhaustion. Skipping to orgasm is fine for masturbating before falling asleep, not usually so when with a partner. If you need to look at a clock to pace yourself, do it. The longer the pace, the better the final orgasm (except for those with delayed-orgasm problems, more on that in another post). I try to pace my lovers as much as I can; some like it and some find it deliciously evil and sadistic. Perhaps the feeling of being controlled and surrendering spices up the pleasure factor, who knows for sure for every given moment. One thing IS sure... the ride is much more interesting than a bee-line to the finish line!

Take your time and have fun!

Ronielle over and out

Closet Case Husbands: How To Keep Fooling Your Wife

My current reading assignment is called "The Gay Husband Checklist for Wives Who Wonder". I figure that since many of my visitors are also husbands, it may be useful to compile information on how wives become suspicious of their husband's secret lives. The author of this book is a councellor for women whose world has been turned upside-down upon discovering their husband's true nature. I have taken her checklists for how to spot a gay man posing as straight, and I came up with tips on how not to be discovered.

I sympathize with gay husbands, since it is not easy to lead a deep undercover life. If a spy was told that they had to maintain the ruse of being totally devoted to their wives for the rest of his life for a mission, I would expect that their would be a very strong motivation for success, like money or fear of death. But for whatever reason, staying on the down-low is the goal, and I hope my following tips help you to maintain the status quo.

1. Have regular penetrative sex with your wife.

A spiral decline of sex after marriage is the top of the list. You should plan to have sex at least once a week, or at least initiate as often as possible. Wives expect their straight husbands to be more sexual than themselves, so if she refuses, keep insisting. Always be a little more sexually agressive than she is. Uninterested husbands smell like homo.

2. Never talk about past your homosexual experiences, even if you say it wasn't for you.

This is also a big no-no, and can certainly cast suspicion somewhere down the road. Since many men have lousy first encounters with other men (due to nervousness, inexperience, etc.), it doesn't mean that you might not like it the next time (in her eyes).

3. Do not be overly negative towards gays

Overcompensation by hating gays is easy, because a gay husband does not want to be gay, and their self-hatred can raise eyebrows when overdone. Keep cool, and instead be neutral about the whole subject. Don't slip up by being emotional.

4. Do not shy away from her vagina.

Most gays are turned off by vagina, and straight guys are turned on at the mere idea. So practice your 'I'm getting excited' face and purge all disgusted reactions, as women are extremely sensitive and vulnerable to you. Remember, you are straight, so act the part.

5. Take your time to make love to her, properly.

'Going through the motions' is easily detected, so make sure you repeat in your mind a mantra to stay focused, such as "I love you so much, you make me feel so good; I want to be with you the rest of my life"

Meaningless 'obligation' sex breeds even more suspicion, so make sure you can pull this off accordingly. The lack of passion indicates something is wrong, and she won't rest until she finds out why.

As you can see, when life is about keeping up with appearances, notice how being yourself and being happy are never mentioned. They are the ultimate sacrifices for mission success. The thought of being exposed is one of the most horrible thing when you are hiding. Perhaps a new appreciation for gays who are out of the closet is necessary: openly gay people have courage, bravery and guts to be who they are. They don't call it gay pride for nothing! Gay husbands can be brave and strong too, it is birthright of being homosexual.

So to all my brothers and sisters in hiding, I wish you luck in your mission. If you are going to do it, at least do it right. Also, clean out your internet history, change passwords often, and delete text messages right after you read them. She will search your phone and computer for definite clues; don't let her find a thing.

Apologies in advance, this is not meant to be inflammatory. My only goal is to help in any way I can.

Keep in touch my friends!

Ronielle over and out

Times Of Stress

My recent visitor told me that his thoughts of me helped him during an exasperated breakdown at work; an unexpected compliment! There are many times during the day where I think of my clients, which I believe is normal since my mission is to seek out new relationships that ultimately lead to mutual benefit. I try my best to fulfill the role of lover, and part of that role is to spend some time in thought about that person.

Remembering past lovers can be very satisfying for both partners, especially during sex with someone else. Why feel guilty about thinking of other people while making love? To me, I channel all the passion from my past to build on the current moment. No one has to know but me.

Caution: if a lover asks you directly who were you thinking about during sex, consider your options: telling the truth can be devastating during this (obvious) time of vulnerability (of the person who asks). A person who is very secure with themselves would not ask this question. The most likely good answer would be to look them directly in their eyes and say, "You, and only you." (And derivitives of that, etc.) Never answer anything else except something like, "you tell me first" to gauge how you should respond. Even so, the bast answer is still the same (in my opinion).

Remember, even if honesty is the best policy, it can destroy a relationship easier than anything else. So keep 'honest' opinions and comments to yourself unless you are sure that it will make your partner feel good. That is the point of being together; to make each other feel good.

Enjoy the spring!

Ronielle

Sex Injectables

With a sex industry growing everyday, research in pharmaceuticals are advancing in to improve the sexual condition. Most of these improvement are erection-centric, but a few also improve desire and libido and act mainly on the central nervous system. I will mention only those I use for my own sex work, and those I can give an honest review.

My main erection penis injection is Caverject, also known as alprostadil and prostaglandin E1. Many guys in the sex business (and older folks as well) rely on this penis injection to perform as it guarantees hard erections at proper doses. Guys need to be hard for work, and that stress can work against them when 3+ cameras are rolling, or with a client who is not their sexual match. When your dick earns your livelyhood, it has to be a reliable worker. Alprostadil is usually reserved for the erectile dysfunction crowd, and prescribed mainly to guys over 45, however it is available without a prescription from many online pharmacies, and some sympathetic doctors will prescribe it to younger men. The dangers are overdosing and having a prolonged erection over 6 hours that can seriously permanently damage erectile function, so proper working knowledge is necessary to become comfortable using this drug on a regular basis. There is also a matter of pain it produces, but most users are not seriously bothered enough with it to discontinue its use.

Alprostadil is also the central drug for the underground "Chemical Penis Enlargement" protocol, as it also has a high potential to loosen/soften the tough penile tissues (such as collagen) so exercises to remodel the penis are more effective. This protocol asks for about 15 hours total per week of erection time, in 3 hours or so increments per day. I can personally vouch for this experiment as it is part of my daily routine for the past 33 months, and that I gained both 2"  in length and in girth: but injections are only the central part, the others being mechanical stretching and hormonal cycling. (more on chempe.com)

Another interesting injectable is called Melanotan II, which is used primarily to darken the skin tone from the inside-out, as it tricks the body to tan by producng more skin pigments. The positive side-effects are lowered appetite, increased libido, and for men, increased spontaneous erections. Called the "Barbie drug" as it causes tanning, weightloss and libido; this injection is done in a small skin fold on the belly and its most noticeable negative effect is nausea for a few hours of injection. I also use this drug on a regular basis for over 5 years as it keeps me with a whole body tan all year round and keeps appetite in check, plus high libido and spontaneous erections for escorting.

So, for those looking for an edge to make their sex work easier, consider these options as "tried and true" from your friendly neighboorhood escort, yours truly. These are secrets of the pros, and more molecules are being discovered every year to enhance the sexual nature of man. They are truly a crowd pleaser!

Keep in touch!

Ronielle

Chemical Penis Enlargement

Many of my readers are not aware of that I also write about my own experiments with chemical penis enlargement, which can be found at chempe.com. Although having a large penis is not necessary to escorting, it certainly helps when an escort continuously tries to improve his product over the long term. Upgrading my body over time keeps me on top of my game, and adds longevity to an already extended career of escorting. It also helps to have a personal obsession with big penises, and to surround oneself with size-queens!

Directly related to chem pe is the use of erection aides, primarily injections in the side of the penis right before show time. While most guys know and use pills such as viagra and cialis (and less often levitra), these drugs work only in conjunction with mental sexual arousal, which can be difficult in times of stress, nervousness and anxiety (which happens to every man). Also, such oral medications fail to work at all in a percentage of the population, and can increase the level of concern when one fails to perform. Injections, on the other hand, work regardless of mental state (except extreme cases, of course), and if properly used, can be used for sex AND penis enlargement.

Since I have been writing my other blog, I have started doing more distance consultations by phone and webcam with guys (both gay and straight varieties) all around the world. The interest that has been generated fuels multiple fires: escorting, personal enlargement, and research to be shared with my consultation clients. My obsession with sex was channelled into escorting; my obsession with penis enlargement became essential to escorting and branched out to reach a much broader audience across the globe. My divocup penis enlarging device was born out of necessity to complete my enlargement goals, and now quickly becoming a regular part of the lives of so many men who have purchased them since they became publicly available from divocup.com in Nov 2010.

This chain of events would not have been possible without the support of my clients, who in turn benefit from enjoying the fruits of my labors. It seems in a world where one person doing his own thing can spark interest to many others; just by being different and taking the risk of being alienated by friends and family for having a public life (quite controversial), and being accepted by people he doesn't even know personally. In my case, alienation didn't occur, but the thought of it has delayed my personal projects for many years.

In my eyes, penis enlargement is like working out at the gym: lots of guys prefer to see the results on someone else than doing the hard work themselves. If a guy does bodybuilding, is there a body part they should neglect? No. So the logic stands that all bodybuilders should include penis enlargement. What a beautiful site that would be at bodybuilding competitions instead of what we usually see now!

Coming back to escorting and penis enlargement, the two fit so well together like a glove. Efficiency and progression are large motivational factors in life for me, and I am happy to be able to transform 2 sex-related obsessions to real constructive uses. It is not everyday we can take fantasy into reality, with benefits along the way. I wonder how long I can keep this up! Probably until I reach my forties and fifties my image will go more towards a "built daddy" look, and that will satisfy my fantasies even more. But that detail deserves a seperate post.

Keep in touch guys!

Ronielle, up up and away!

Valentines Month: Seek Out What Makes You Secretly Happy

Valentine's day is the day before my birthday, so naturally it has much more meaning to me than to most people. It seems that this special day brings out the extreme in people I talk to; they either love valentines or they hate it. Of course, being in love with someone makes the day that much more exciting, but being alone has it's own opportunities as well (opportunities that those in serious relationships are missing out on). Let's explore these possibilities, shall we?

As so many writers focus on what to do with your lover on valentines, this article will focus on creating opportunities of excitement with professional sex workers, regardless of your current romantic status. By broadening our goals widely, the entire month of February can be the 'Valentine's Month'. This approach is useful because it diffuses the need to make the official date of the 14th as the deadline for romantic endeavours. Many restaurants are completely booked on this day, as well as services provided by escorts and masseurs such as myself. By allowing yourself to be free to have fun anytime during the month can really simplify your life in terms of scheduling.

I consider valentines to be the month to create new sexual experiences. If you are not currently involved (or even more excitingly, you decide to cheat on your loved one, for whatever reason), then the easiest way is to contact your local escort for some fun. Seriously, it is as easy as making a massage appointment. But an erotic massage is a good option as well, for those who are not to comfortable for paying for sex but still want to do something a little crazy/wild and save a few bucks at the same time (masseurs generally charge less than escorts do, but action is limited to the masseur's restrictions, so find out in advance when you are making the appointment).

Keeping to the theme of love, sex and romance for valentines, consider exploring a new sexual experience with a new lover. Chances of making a memorable time are higher if you actively seeking sex. A very sad reality is that people have a concept that if they take someone out for a date, pay for dinner, movie, dancing, flowers, candy and other gifts, that they will also have great sex after. We all know that it is not guaranteed, and even if you do have sex with your date, you pretty much paid for it (and if you don't have sex, you pretty much end up feeling used for your generosity). At least with an escort you are guaranteed sex within an hour, without the trouble of looking for the perfect gift or planning a perfect night out. Both ways, you pay for it (even if you are married, you may actually pay more for sex with your spouse than you realize). In an ideal world we have the perfect partner who wants to please us and we please them just as much: holding on to those ideals can cause much grief when it doesn't happen to us. As I always say, "Perfection is the practice of being unhappy." We are never truly happy when we look for perfection, because we are always looking for the thing that keeps it from being perfect. (And we always find it.) Looking for the silver lining of every cloud is a better attitude to adopt when searching for happiness, where the cloud just makes the silver brighter by contrast.

Please keep in mind that I believe in love and monogamy, but my experience shows that (secretly) couples are not as sexually compatible (or happy in general) as they want people to believe. Is it right to suffer in a relationship, when the cure is simply a safe (and secret) sexual encounter with a stranger? When I see a married man as a client, he ALWAYS goes back home to his wife/lover/family. A little detour adds spice to his life, and excitement.The significant other usually is furious if discovered, but that fury is misplaced. It is from a deep down realization that their man is not satisfied, and may never be fully satisfied.  A good rationalization is that one person cannot expect to be the world to another  person. It is equally selfish to expect one person to fulfill another one's needs completely. Would you like to be completely dependent on someone, or have someone completely dependent on you? That thought doesn't inpire sex to me (actually, it is a boner-shrinker). Don't pull the honesty card out, because most people can't handle the truth.

But getting into gritty details, suppose you have decided to have a sexual encounter with an escort; what do you do? Getting physical is usually the whole point of the meeting. Small talk is necessary to some, but moving ahead to the main course is the smart way of using your limited time together. Now, some guys get anxiety here for different reasons such as being too nervous to get hard, or afraid of cumming too fast, or general guilt. These feelings are normal, and make part of the experience real. With that in mind, enjoy the entire experience and communicate to your escort as directly as possible if required.

If you decide to see a masseur who does "happy endings", all you have to do is be clean, wear clean clothes, trim your nails, and lightly smell good (this is goes for any date in general). Relax, and enjoy the ride. Perfect for the one who is not in the mood to reciprocate, and allows you to focus on YOUR needs. But this can be limiting if you don't cum easily with hand jobs, or you prefer to take part in the action, whether anal or oral sex (which is the usual restrictions with masseurs). But it is great for those new to sexual services.

Love is a more difficult concept to address compared to sex. But there are a few escorts out there who are willing to provide love as well, within the parameters established by those involved. Imagine a playland with a fence around it, and a playland that is open. You can have fun in both, but the one with the fence has an admission cost, and you can have fun within those bounderies. While love with an escort is very tricky, as long as both are getting what they need from the relationship, it will work. But I consider escorts as multi-purpose: we can provide love to those who want it, and sex on demand. A quiet evening hugging and kissing to recharge the morale, or great conversation and a bottle of wine to wind down a stressful week: all depends on what the client wants at that time. The boundary is this: both need to benefit. Sounds like a real relationship, huh? It is, and it is a good training for relationships in general. I say this because whether you are in a "real" relationship or not, you can still do relationship things and have a great time. Just don't get caught up with the money thing and everything will be alright.

Please let me end with this point: seek out what will make you happy. No one will bring it to you, no one can make you as happy as you can make yourself (believe me, it is true. It is also your responsibility to your wellbeing.) Images of Cupid flying around shooting love arrows is a symbol, a symbol of action. He sometimes hits, and sometimes misses. But at least he is trying, and so should you, no matter what situation you currently are in. So make an effort, and celebrate valentines this year. That's an order!

Multiple Orgasms for Dummies

With the first month out of the way, and getting our routine back to 'normal' after the holidays, it is time to focus on this year's goals. As a personal goal, why not explore a male multiple orgasm? There is a simple technique to doing this, and every time you masturbate is a practice session for you. The key to unlocking a multi-big O is timing and breath control (and practice, obviously!)

A multiple orgasm is like throwing a stone in the water; only very carefully as if you want the stone to skip along the calm surface. Each time the stone hits the water it creates ripples. These ripples can be seen as the 'orgasms', the larger ripples are formed first, and as the stone skips over the water, little 'orgasms' are formed.

Please do not confuse 'orgasm' with 'ejaculation'. They are different events that usually take place simultaneously for men, only that multiple ejaculation may not take place (ejaculation is only for shooting liquid, and the sensation of fluid ejecting). Orgasms make the eyes roll back and toes curl, and the shivering 'shakes' that feel so good. Orgasms also cause a release of prolactin in the brain, which is the culprit for making us tired and useless after a good O.

Back to technique:

Timing: hold your breath right before you have your orgasm, which means no air in or out. Success is acheived when oxygen flow is completely stopped (imagine being underwater). Do not use any devices such as a neck tie or rope around the neck, unless you want your dead body to be found in a very comprimising situation.

Still holding your breath and taking the time to savour the orgasm without air, hold on to your lungs as long as you can, until your vision starts to darken around the edges or you see stars (if you are in the dark). Basically hold your breath for what seems to be a very long time but don't pass out.

Start breathing with a big breath in when you can't hold on anymore, and continue holding on to the orgasmic feeling. Your first breath should feel great, and is the first mini-orgasm after the main one. If you are masturbating, don't stop even if their is a mess to clean up. If you are with a partner, don't stop whatever made you go over the edge. Allow your body to contract itself silly until all the mini orgasms have squeezed themselves out. Unroll your eyes and uncurl your toes: now the multiple oragsms are over.

Don't just read this post, go try it yourself. If you get it right, you may never have plain single O's again.  

Sidebar: remember prolactin is secreted after orgasm? Some people do not produce a lot of this in the brain at orgasm, and are able to restart their sex drive after a short pause. A drug is also available to inhibit prolactin secretion called cabergolin; its primary use is for parkinsons disease treatment (as parkingsons patients secrete too much prolactin). An interesting side effect of cabergolin is a shorter rest phase between orgasms, noticed by parkinsons patients.

Now remember kids, hold your breath before cumming, hold it until you almost bust a lung, breathe again and enjoy what the French call "the little death".

Keep in touch and explore!

Ronielle

Dressing Up in Leather

My recent visitor loves leather. Since he called to say he would be a little late, I got dressed up in chaps (which was a very generous gift from a massage client long time ago when I still did outcalls and massage only), and a leather jacket. He was happy when I opened the door to greet him, and thanked me for the effort.

As we progressed though the session, I took off my jacket and put him in it. At that moment a shift in dynamic occured: confidence, sexyness, excitement. Roleplaying as bikers sharing a secret, feeling bad boy and naughty. We delayed orgasm until it just had to come out... NOW!

Delaying somebody their orgasm generates feelings that can ultimately increase final pleasure. Begging and pleading for release transfers control to your partner, and enjoyment heightens when control is returned to you at the point of orgasm. 

Auto-asphyxiation can be gently integrated into the art of capturing the orgasmic moment and stretching the length of time we feel the buzz. But I will save that part for a later post.

Keep in touch!

Ronielle

Happy New Year 2011!

A new year has arrived, this time full of puppies. That's right, my dog had 6 puppies on Dec 13, which started right before a client arrived for a session. I had to reschedule that appointment though, but my guy was here to witness the second puppy being born. What a magical moment.

This holiday season was rather busy, as usual, but with the litter of puppies it was even more so as the clean up duties steadily increased. And this is just the beginning!

In terms of escorting, finding out exactly what someone wants is the challenge. Because everyone is different, at different times, indicators of success are sometimes hard to identify. It all comes down to communication: for example, my visitor told me that he would just like to be naked in bed and hold me while we talked. We did this, and time went by very fast. Somehow I felt like what we did was not enough for him, as if I should have initiated something more sexual. But since the message was quite clear from the start, I honored the request of no sex. But just because someone says one thing doesn't necessarily mean that is what they want.

To illustrate this point, another person gave me a list of all the things he wanted to do in order, and how much time to spend on each action. After following his instructions exactly, he told that that I did fine, but he wanted me to surpass his expectations, not just meet them. A lesson about how difficult some people can be to please by doing exactly what is asked for. So what is an escort to do?

While I do not think that I am the best escort in the world (how can anyone ever earn that title?), I do try my best in providing a service to satisfy my clients, to a certain degree (and safety). But to stress myself out each time I see them, and to feel inadequate after the session is not the reason why I do this work (if so, I would have stayed in the Canadian military as an officer). With so many nice clients who make me feel good about myself, I rather stick to those I can make happy. Being free to chose who I see again is a luxury, as many people I know have job conditions that are less than ideal.

Resolutions for 2011 is to continue to refine my method of escorting to please a wider client base, to provide more pictures and videos online and in my print advertising, and to deepen existing relationships to mutual benefit. I wish all my readers good luck in their resolutions for this year, as well as good health and prosperity. Happy New Years my friends!

Keeping in touch,
Ronielle

First Time Clients: Never Paid for It Before Now

The critical point where one decides that paying for a good time is always an interest to me. Never having to pay for sex, I do see myself doing it if the circumstances were right; but what exactly would those circumstances be? By musing over what my clients tell me, the pictures starts to become clear.

I would have to be looking for a long time on who I would want to see. Advertisements online and in local papers is where I would start, as I feel more comfortable with a professional with contact information than meeting someone in person in a bar or on the streets. Researching all I can on him, and fantasize a while before I get the courage to make contact. This will be my first time, after all.

It may take years of patiently waiting, all the while cheacking to see if he is still in business, and if he has updated his photos. That is very important, because without photos who knows what will arrive. And updated photos mean a real pro, who constantly works out and stays in shape for his clientele. Face pictures will be considered first, as that will the face I will be kissing and looking at. If he is advertising for a few years, it would suggest that business is stable for him. It is very strange to see new escorts popping up and disappearing after a month or so, especially if they do not have pictures.

But even with all this research, what do I know of the escort's personality? Does he communicate well? Does he answer the phone in a pleasant manner, or write communications professionally and intelligently, ie complete sentances, capital letters where appropriate and punctuation? This first contact, even if it is not to make an appointment, will leave a lasting impression.

But even that doesn't seem enough to make the big step and do it. A good excuse would be sufficient, like celebrating something like my birthday, a promotion or holiday gift. Or downgrading the whole scene by telling myself that it is like an expensive massage, nothing serious, and wait until stressed to deserve a treat. Maybe unhappiness or unsatisfied with my current mate will drive me to the point. What about just wanting to see the escort and see if it clicks? These are all valid excuses to see my escort of choice.

Of course, like many personal things, I would keep this a secret. Not that I am ashamed of paying for good company, it is the fact that not everything needs to be everybody's business. A private life is exciting for me, and no one should know about it if they are not a part of it. If careful, no one will find out, and that is just the way I like it.

Under these circumstances (this is not a complete list, just off the top of my head), actually visiting my escort will become a strong possibility. And his is just the beginning!

This post was inspired by a recent client, who was seeing an escort for his first time. I listened.

Keep in touch guys, I love reading your comments!

Ronielle 

Massage, My First Passion

The humble beginnings of my career as an escort started in high school, where I decided to learn massage therapy with a group of friends for 2 projects; my biomedics course and my english course. When I graduated, I put out an ad in the local paper for $20 massages: my strategy was to get as many clients as possible and get experience. And that I did!

As I moved around and settled in Montreal, I started massaging for $40/hour. I placed an ad in different publications to test their responses, and realized that people also wanted sex.

Starting out pretty much on my own in a new city, I felt pressured into crossing the line from "professional massage" to "sexual massage". Luckily my best friend at the time was an escort, and he was very helpful in guiding me, although I did not take all of his advice. Using real names was not something many escorts do, nor do they show their face in publications. My authentic identity is what set me apart from the competition.

But coming back to massage, my passion was to heal the body by touching and manipulating muscles, and providing enjoyment and pleasure to my client. For many years I did both, escorting when I can, and massaging as my full time job. My mind goes deep into the flesh, and I enjoyed the feeling of concentration as I attempt to perfect my healing techniques. It really is something that was fun for me.

Escorting provided more financial freedom, however. Deciding to stop massaging and do only escorting was a hard decision for me, but circumstances pulled me in that direction. But once in a while a visitor asks for a massage during our escorting session, and I give the best that I can do. Sometimes the results of my massage is another massage for our next session, until it becomes a regular part of our routine. This pleases me, as I can continue my practice without sacrificing benefits, and we both get the best of both worlds. Somehow, in the larger scheme of things, this was to be expected. With the escort and massage profession so close together, there comes a time where it overlaps completely, and passion is fulfilled in more than one way.

When looking from my point of view, I have the best job in the world for me, and being my own boss is the cherry on top. My humble beginnings of $20/h massages to my current rate of $150/h, the type of clientele changes with each raise. While no offense is intended to anyone, my current clientele is the best in terms of compatibility with my personality. Now is the time I look back after all these years and enjoy the experience. Everything I learned from my guys in the past is being used now with my current visitors. The fun part: I'm still learning. There is no job stagnation for me!

As the last month of the year 2010 approaches, revisions come to the surface. It is normal for me to question myself as there is no one else qualified who can do a yearly evaluation on my own job performance. I promise not to be too hard on myself!

Keep in touch!

Ronielle

Golden Showers/Water Sports/Piss Play Requests

One of my popular requests, this is one that I am willing to be the pee-er rather than the pee-ee. More clearly, I rather give the shower than take it myself. For those still confused on what this is all about, golden showers is the act of urinating on someone or the drinking urine in an erotic context. The fetish usually requires two people, where one is the peeing on the other; in some cases both urinate simultaneously on the each other.

I have done this for some clients, and it was rather fun watching a guy enjoy himself under my stream. In a more analytical/metaphysical point of view, the heat of my urine is from my own body, and as heat is a form of energy (and the urine is the vector in which it is transported) one could say that a golden shower is a way of transferring energy from one lover to another. Enjoying someone enjoying it is pleasure resonance, which is completely dependent on the situation. Perhaps I think about such things too much, maybe to distract myself from the fact that normally waste products from our body is generally thought of as disgusting. Blame me for having an open mind.

When someone calls and asks for permission to pee on my and make me drink it, I refuse. In this case I do not particularly enjoy it, and if this is what my potential client wants, then this is humiliation. Pleasure resonance is not occurring, and in someway demeaning to me. At this point in my career as an escort I do not wish to demean myself by doing something I don't want to do. The act of being urinated on is not demeaning if you like it, but forced to drink it against your will is a violation, and money is not enough to justify that violation.

When someone throws money in your face to make you do something you don't want to do, my awareness is on the underlying motivation for the desire. Is it a thrill to win a negotiation? To feel powerful to make others do what you want? To enjoy seeing others in displeasure? In any case, it is not my cup of tea, and unlike some others in the sex industry, I am not in desperate need for cash to put aside my principle.

One guy called and asked me how much to do bareback, because "everyone has their price". Unfortunately for him, the only price is to be my exclusive lover, who is the only one who has that privilege. I didn't tell him that, though. I just said no, and to find someone else to do it. The sad part is, someone will say yes to him.

I feel grateful to have a clientele that has supported me all these years to become who I am today. I realize that it is not every escort that can say that, and I know quite a few over the years. Perhaps by selecting good clients and becoming their friends, the adage "you are the company you keep" holds true. And these people I would gladly pee on if they asked me too.

Ronielle

Arriving On Time

Many people, including myself, have been taught to arrive early for an appointment. However, arriving early for an escorting session may not be as appreciated as it would be in a business setting. I cannot speak for other escorts, but for me, arriving on time is the best thing. First of all, I am expecting clients to arrive on schedule, not early. Some guys have come a whole 30 mins early, and I might not even be home! Thinking that I have stood them up, they don't show up at all at the scheduled time. A misunderstanding? I don't know what to call it, except a bad day for me.

Secondly, because I take my shower right before my guest arrives, anyone arriving early gets me soaking wet at the door. Not very fun, and not the way to start a session. Although I understand the eagerness for some to get to me earlier, and after a decade or so of escorting I know better than to shower at the last minute, it still happens because of my procrastinating nature and my thrill to be exactly on time. When will I ever learn?

The obvious solution is to be ready earlier. My other idea was to write a post to let guys know how I feel about early birds. So here it is, as simple as that. Luckily, its not a big problem one way or another, but some may think when I tell them to be on time and not early next time is a reprimand. I guess I should just keep my mouth shut, but how would they know unless they read this blog?

No hard feelings to those who arrived early in the past, it just makes me feel unprofessional to open the door wet with a towel around my waist. At least they know I'm clean!

Please be on time, and everyone will be happy!

Peace out,

Ronielle

Divocups A Major Stress Reducer

At least for me!

Inside the flu and cold season yet again, this time with much less stress than before. If I got sick, I simply don't escort until I get better. But now that the penis cups are selling steadily, it will continue to generate income regardless of my health. After 10 years or so of escorting, it is great to have a security net like this.

Although the divocups are selling around the world, very few of my escorting clients seem interested in penis enlargement via the cups. I don't mention this to try to trigger sales, but just an observation. Can anyone enlighten me? My best guess is that the desire for a bigger penis has been killed long time ago when told it was impossible. Even with living proof in front of them, perhaps it is not worth the effort. But that sounds like the discouraging self-talk when starting a new diet or exercise program: resistance to change, with a twinge of fear of failure.

But clients don't come to see me about that, they come to have fun. And fun it is! With a very nice group of clients, this fall has been great. Client life-cycle continues to evolve, to the point where most understand that they must make an appointment days in advance, and last minute clients are looking elsewhere.

Targeting to bottoms has also worked, and will continue as fucking is my favorite sexual activity. I am lucky as the prospect of combining business with pleasure, as well as penis enlargement and daily exercise, are all rolled into one convenient package. These are exciting times in my life right now, as things fall in the right places.

Escorting is still a full time job for me, working almost everyday of the week. There are many calls that I have not answered due to work, but hopefully they will call again and be successful in making an appointment. But this method is successful in prioritizing my existing clientele, who schedule me far in advance.

Although my policy with clients is not to pry in their private lives, I am still curious to what information they are willing to share with me. As my circle of friends gets smaller and smaller and farther away, clients are becoming more important for my social well-being. When we both have time, I enjoy a good pillow-talk to round off the session.

Many former clients have contacted me to touch base, and to let me know that interruption of visits are finacially motivated and not by any wrong-doing on my part, which inspires a sigh of relief and happiness to re-establish contact. I wish them all the success they can handle, and encourage them to maintain contact with me. After all, many of my friends are former clients.

Thanks to all who read my stuff, until next time!

Love the world!

Ronielle 

Bareback and Money

Today a man corresponded with me by email, ultimately looking for a long term escort with whom he can get fucked 'safely' bareback. He claims, on his word, that he is hiv-, clean and free of disease.

What is my interpretation of this message? I will let you know right now.

My Guiding Assumptions in terms of sex with strangers:

1. Everyone is lying about their claim of "disease-free". Reason? If they want bareback sex, and will say anything to get it. They may believe they are clean, which is totally different than actually being clean. Even medical testing is not totally reliable.

2. Someone who looks for and gets unprotected anal sex with prostitutes is not someone who cares about their prostitute's health. They care more about the momentary good feeling of skin on skin, instead of long term ramifications of getting infected.

3. There are a lot of other escorts who will do it. So let them take the client. I am not so desperate for money that I would take the risk. Escorting for me is a career, not a way to buy my next fix of drugs.

4. I will lose many potential clients because of my use of condoms. However, since I do not work when I am sick, even with a cold or a sore throat, that by itself is a loss of potential income. Imagine the long term loss of income should I get sick on antiviral medications. in the end, I rather have a loss of income and be healthy than have a loss of income and be sick. Let's call it "Escort Risk Management"

5. People ask for bareback as a test of my integrity. They don't really want to have high risk activity, they just want to make sure their escort lives up to their claim of being "clean and safe". Someone who insists on taking the first steps in protecting themselves are more likely to live up to their reputation as safe.

6. Barebacking clients are maliciously infecting sex-workers with the motivation of revenge. These type of people actually exist, and infected escorts rarely receive any sympathy from anyone should they become infected. I have actually witnessed doctors who reduce the level of professionalism once they hear that I am a sex-worker (in a clinical setting). We have the reputation to be lower than dogs in modern society. So these malicious clients are actually doing the public a favor by infecting us.

The last assumption is especially powerful to me. Knowledge and protocols are the only way to effectively deal with these evil men. If pre-screening during the initial communications works, it minimizes on-the-spot disputes and confrontations when the condoms are reached out for.

The guy in question told me that he barebacks with other escorts and that he is still clean. Was that meant to reassure me?

The last thing my potential client wrote is that "money talks". In that case, we don't speak the same language. I'm glad that I care about myself enough to not let it get to me. But ranting about it on my blog sure helps!

At times like this, I am lucky to have the clientele that I have now. As good escorts are hard to find, good clients are also in short order. One more assumption:

7. Treat good clients in the best way possible. They provide comfort and care as well, and can be a good friend even when escorting is a thing of the past. In this case, it is a win-win situation. Not to mention loads of fun!

Dreaming of a perfect world...

Ronielle

Getting Topped

While the trend lately was being the big top, I am very pleased to be the lucky bottom this week so far. With the joys of topping coupled with the joys of bottoming, this side of the coin gives me more insight of how much pleasure a bottom can have with a great top, and learning a few new moves borrowed from my recent encounters. The next bottoms I have will no doubt benefit from these lessons! The joys of versatility...!

[Begin sales pitch] My Divocups have arrived today! Yay! I wrote a post on my divocup.com blog about how they will be shipped, etc. (Promotion is free shipping, and 15 min personal instruction via webcam on size selection and putting one on and off is included for each new customer). [End sales pitch.]

But back to topping, one sensation I could not stop thinking of is the feeling of cock inside me, not moving in and out, but just throbbing. Feeling the pulses of your lover's heart though his hard cock to your eager shoot is a subtle sensation, but undeniably sexy and exciting. Perhaps it is a foreshadowing of the moment of climax, where it seems as if a twin barrel rifle is flaring and ejaculating hot liquid deep inside to cover my guts, and the opening of my hole is around the trigger. Maybe that's it, the reason it feels second only to cumming...

[Sidebar: as I write this I glance over my shoulder and find my male Boston terrier (Yoda) and my new Boston female (Yoko Ono) screwing and stuck. Perhaps I shouldn't type out loud d(-_-)b ]

I don't usually write so erotically, but the sensation is fresh in my mind, having learned my lesson last night and this morning by two different 'teachers'. And since I know they will read this, it is my pleasure to share what is on my mind.

Lesson learned: Throbbing feels great, and should be explored as a way to generate maximum pleasure using minimum physical energy. Kegel Exercises help boost the feeling of the throb, a term I describe as "dick flexing". Flexing dick while quietly inside your lover makes them pay attention to the union of your erogenous zones, and at that moment both minds are touching. The special feeling you have at that point is shared, and the connection takes place. If you are spiritual, I would call this the union of souls. This is by no means a permanent thing, but it is an intense feeling that seems to transcend our logical concept of love. Perhaps, in a more humorous tone, it is our sexual 'reset' button. You know, the one like many electronic devices have to reset it to factory parameters, only this time you don't use a blunt wooden toothpick (ever wondered why those reset buttons are recessed? I guess their makers believed a good deep poke will do them some good once in a while if things go wrong!)

Aware that the majority of the guys who visit me are not into penetrative sex at all, please do not discount the fact that penetration in fantasy is different from doing it in reality. Effort is required to learn the ropes of fucking (for both roles), and for many, sex is all about having fun in a more familiar manner such as masturbation, oral and frottage: things that connect us to early fun sexual notions as children (my theory though). Initial attempts of discovering anal sex for this group are usually not fun, and the feeling stuck with those lessons.The effort lies in finding the right partner at the right time of their life to reset their love-button and set the record straight: anal sex is soooooo good when it's good! The mental aspect becomes much more important and apparent when dealing with the backdoor...

Before I publish this post, I want to say thanks for the many people who have supported me all these years in their own ways, and grateful for the opportunity to write freely about my life and thoughts without suppression. Who would of thought that a simple prostitute can refocus their job to create an image of his world for all to see and share, without prosecution. If only the profession did not carry the weight of a bad reputation, then things would be very good indeed.

Thank you all for reading,
Love the world!
Ronielle 
Doing the Oldest Profession in History

Safe Sex A Priority, Condoms for Oral Sex

At my latest STD screening, my doctor has urged me to extend condom protocol to oral sex as well. The hassles of dealing with orally transmitted diseases is not worth it, and although most of my clients are not crazy about the idea of sucking on a protected dick, or getting sucked with a condom on, they appreciate the fact that i am being careful. With the increased popularity of bareback sex on the internet, diseases are spreading, and those of us who want to stay healthy must take precautions.

I realize that this condoms or nothing policy will reduce the number of clients I may have, but at least my chances of getting an infection (and passing it to others) are lower as well. What kind of example would I be if I didn't practice safe sex with all my clients? What kind of client refuses safe sex? Is this an issue of trust?

Trust is important, as long as it is well placed. Trust in safe sex protocol is good; trust in each partner to be clean is bad. Even someone without symptoms (like burning sensations while peeing) can be a carrier. How many people do you know who are hiv positive hide the fact (or lie)? I know quite a few, or to be quite frank, almost all the hiv+ guys i know have lied about it to me in the beginning. Lesson: trust safe sex, not people's words. If you catch something, you only have yourself to blame for knowing better but not acting on it. Pointing fingers doesn't cure infections.

Back on trust, in my opinion those who participate in unsafe sex may believe they are clean, but this is true probably because they are not getting tested frequently enough. Here is an typical scenario for those who get tested regularly:

Time for a blood test...make time to go to clinic

Blood samples taken...waiting for results

Worried if it comes back positive...scared about life changes if it happens

Results received...relief that it is negative (in my case)...confirmed safe sex is worth it

Trust in condoms are reinforced...staying clean takes effort...reward is being healthy

I do not mean to offend anyone who is into bareback sex (strangely enough I love watching it as porn, but not in practice). But as a public sex worker, I intend to minimize the spread of disease and keep myself healthy. My best clients are expected to be the same. An escort who does bare does so when there is nothing left to catch (or they so believe). So be warned!

Love and health to you all!

Ronielle  

Back After A Long While, Fall Projects

Wow, what a summer! Although a strange bit of bacterial infection deep in my right leg caused me to cancel clients for a few weeks during the month of August, everything is now in tip top shape healthwise. For those of you who didn't know, I was also preparing a wedding reception for a family member back in my hometown (Winnipeg), the second time being a wedding MC. So, to take advantage of my physical state at the time, I used my energies to concentrate on this fall project. I have to say that being in front of 400+ people holding on to my every word (ok, maybe not EVERY word, but you get the idea), is quite a thrill, and when it got down to it I wasn't nervous at all, despite personally knowing almost all the guests and the expectations (real or otherwise) they project on me. The wedding reception was a total success!

My comfort zone is one-on-one situations, taking time to listen and understand individuals at an easy rhythm. My previous occupation as a military officer prepared me to handle a large group of people by identifying team players to delegate effort towards one common goal, something I miss a lot when switching to a solitary self-employed business. This is why I accepted the challenge of Wedding MC (which for some people, is as complicated as missions could get, and require as much planning!)

But the wedding is all good and done, and in the aftermath and post-partum depression (my baby, my BA-by!), the joys of communicating to my readers about the various unusual topics I hold dear to my heart returns with a vengence. A backlog of escorting clients, penis enlargement consultations and evolution of my divocup project has kept me busy from the morning i turn on my technolgy to when i plug them in to recharge at night. I wish that i had a few personal assistants/slaves to help out, but that would not stop me from biting something bigger than i can chew.

Speaking of chew, penis enlargement does pose risks, especially when successful. The rate of inexperienced bottoms asking me to penetrate them for the first time is increasing, probably due to the wording in my latest print ad in the Fugues magazine "Total Top".

This may confuse some readers who know me as versatile, however, realizing that many people do not use the internet (and print helps cover that demographic quite nicely) i wanted to appeal to the vague notion that there are more bottoms than tops in Montreal. According to my schedule, I think that has a grain of truth in it.

It is great to be back writing again to you all! Hopefully I entertained you for a few minutes in your otherwise busy day. But I have a feeling I had more fun writing this post than doing the stepmaster at the downtown YMCA (which I am on right now tapping this post on my droid smartphone)

Until next time my dear friends!

Ronielle, over and out. 

Ps. Join me on facebook, my profile is Ronielle Buduhan. The old Ronielle Montreal profile is deactivated since double profiles are no longer allowed. TTYL!

Reports of Sexless Relationships, Casualties of Cancer

Prostate cancer, and the treatment for it, can spell disaster for the sexual aspects of a long term relationships. Mismatched sex drives of couples is so common that there should be a standard protocol to deal with it, other than permission to seek sex outside the relationship (which works in theory but ultimately leads to more complications in practice). So what do you do when the person you love no longer wants to physically make love to you anymore?

That's a big question, one that I encounter not only frequently with clients in relationships, but in many of my past relationships as well. Perhaps it is worse when people pay to have sex with me when my own partner won't even bother. But the same conclusion is there: unhappiness being stuck in a relationship; horniness, frustration and perhaps some self-destructve tendencies like over-eating, drugs, drinking and smoking can creep into the desperate situation. 

This is your challenge. You can concentrate on yourself and save yourself. No one can love you until you can love yourself. Be strong, and if you dream of being more happy without your partner then perhaps everything you have been holding on to in that relationship is but an illusion or an excuse for not being the person you want to be. Don't blame others, it is a sad attempt to hide the fact that we are responsible for our own lives and the inability to make positive changes. If all your mental energy is spent on negativity like complaints and nagging, there is not much energy left to grow and nurture and support yourselves and others.

So how does this all fit in to escorting? I listen to people, and I understand that no one chooses to be in this situation. I am the affection outsource. The pain of loving and not being loved in return hurts so bad, I can't be judgemental because true sympathy takes over. Since these guys are usually older, the feeling of being too old to start over is overwhelming. Deep down realizations that paying for sex (despite ingrained thoughts from societies' dim view of escorts) is probably the way to keep things in a therapeutic manner than risk further relationship problems with the current partner (which is already bad, which is why the escort is in play). During an eventual domestic dispute, the escort may be mentioned, and can be played in a way that there was no emotional attachement since it was sex for money.

In my dream world, there is a way of making everyone happy. Escorts are more important in the functioning of existing relationships as stress reducers/coucellors. And preventing your lovers' from being happy becomes a crime and dimly viewed in societies' eyes. But that is a dream on one escort, and it takes more than dreaming to make something true.

Striking Resemblence to Kellan Lutz

My friend saw these pics in a Celebrity magazine and made me take a look. Now here they are for you to take a look!

So weird, but yet so cool! I wouldn't mind meeting him in person, but I guess I would have to wait in line for this guy!

Heat-wave in Montreal!

Staying cool in my much quieter air conditioned room for escorting, I realize just how much of my life is spent in the bedroom. I guess it all started as a kid, horny as hell, anxiously awaiting the time I would have a serious sexual relationship with a man. Well, that time has come, and I don't regret my childhood being over.

On the contrary, I wished I was an adult back then, just because sex would be allowed. Turning an obsession to profession was always in the back of my mind.

A question that pops up is, how is sex taught to children? Sex education in schools (for me) is pretty lame. There are so many restrictions because they have non-specialists talking about an uncomfortable subject. If only society would be more open to accepting my profession and to use us to educated the next generation. Perhaps then we can reduce the number of sexual hangups, confusion and unwanted pregnancies, and screen for homosexuals so we wouldn't grow up feeling alone in our own world.

Living in my bedroom brings back memories, who knew that it will eventually become my office? At least there is more room to breathe than a closet! 

As a matter of fact, in a mood to record my memories on a mindmapping program, I found a consistent pattern in my life: happiness through physical pleasure and pain.

Affection Outsourcing

Affection is something that can fizzle away after years of living together. This is true for straight and gay couples, as well as with our families and animal pets. So what can be done about? Living in sub-clinical misery is not the only option.

The decline of relationship pleasure and affection is noted by changes in bodyweight, which coincides with the symptoms of depression. The more someone gains weight, the less attractive they feel, and when the partner doesn't notice, it means that they are not worth noticing. And like a weed, it will grow unchecked if not nipped in the bud.

So what does a man do when in a couple and not getting enough affection? The first thing is to talk to your partner, and that is not easy without bringing up feelings of blame and other defense mechanisms to reduce fault. If the net result from such a discussion is positive, then you reap the rewards of maintaining good communication. But when things are worse off than before, and you really need to find some loving and affection, then outsourcing is a viable option. Getting your affection from elsewhere while maintaining status quo with your current partner doesn't seem logical, but if you remember that if a massage feels great, making love with a good actor is the step above it. And it feels good to have someone on standby while dealing with your problems. Listening to clients who need someone to pay attention to them, being taken for granted by their lovers seems to be the underlying message.

While many would feel like they are cheating, some live this way for years anyways. Falling in love feels good, but falling in love with an escort is safe, since the client is in control over how much time he wants to spend. Love with our regular lover changes over time, and because of habit or feeling prisoner men do not want to start over with a new person and run the risk of rejection all over again. So you should do what it takes to make yourself more happy; find someone whose answers to your desires are yes.

Even one session provokes strong emotions. In many cases it renews the individual and gives courage to face the relationship in a more positive light. In some cases, it opens up one's mind and clarity sets in, and one knows what they want and don't want in life. Quite a few of my clients have come out of the closet during the time I've known them.

But on the other hand, some do not have regular sex partners for various reasons. These guys are single, and concentrate on work. Relationships are often difficult, so avoiding them is a way of life. This is where escorting becomes their only means of getting affection, and a symbiotic relationship develops. These relationships are essential for both involved, since everyone wins and goes home happy. The escort pays his bills, and the client has something to distract his mind for a short while until the next time.

But acting affectionate is still affection given; over time and continued association this acted affection becomes genuine. Escorts know exactly how to please their regular clients over the long term because it is our job to know. In. A regular relationship the partner is not required to maintain a high level of pleasure, since there is security that the other will always be present no matter what. This is untrue for escorts, where if the client is not satisfied they could easily find another escort. Perhaps this loose tie is what makes it so easy to cheat, since there are no expectations once all transactions are completed.

Wow, this post is long! Time to enjoy St Jean Baptiste Day, which is Quebec's holiday. Have fun and take care!

 

On Circumcisions

An age-old debate from antiquities, but still relevent: circumcision. Being sexually experienced both before and after circumcision , I actually enjoy sex much more without foreskin. The condoms stay on tight, my foreskin no longer blocks my cocksucker's airway, and it smells a lot cleaner!


But there was a side effect from the surgery:  numbness of the glans. Within the first few months after the cut is when most of the feeling had frictioned off, and desensitization set in. It lasted for several years.

Another side effect was the reduction of precum I produced. Before the cut, the mere hint of erection would get my juices flowing. Now, dry as a desert. I don't know why though. Its cleaner, though!

But I have seen many clients with undilated foreskins. This means that the skin doesn't retract over the shaft because the head cannot pass though the opening. This is corrected by surgery or progressive dilation. But to some, this is a condition that doesn't need to be fixed. Only concern is the harboring of spores and microorganisms that can pass as yeast infections to other unprotected sex partners, as these infections are known to love moist warm folds of skin (like in vaginas and foreskin). Dick cheese (a.k.a. smegma), anyone? Not the curds you want to find in your occasional poutine.

Living in Montreal, the majority of the penises I see are uncircumcised. The reason was that the hospitals started charging for the service, which was free. So many opted to save money.

My father was pro-choice. He wanted me to decide what to do to my own body when the time was right. It is rare to have foreskin in the Filipino culture, but it is more common in indigenous regions like Bontoc and Ifugao. And since there are so many types of filipinos, we come in all flavors. Cut, and uncut is one of those varieties.

So, there is the lowdown on circumcision from me. I think I wrote about it before somewhere, so forgive me if I start repeating myself. Ha.

I love out guys for your continued readership! Your comments are the fuel for these posts. Keep them coming!

Frottage for Sensual Safe Sex

Penetration scares many people, so why all the focus on it? Frottage is french for "rubbing", which in this context means rubbing body to body in a sexually pleasing manner.

This subcategory of sex is unique in which both partners can face each other to kiss while rubbing penises together. Comfort is key, so frottage is the way to go if you want to avoid complicated and strenuous positions.

Frottage is considered a safe sex practice, if there is an absence of open sores. Condoms can also be used as a semen collector if cleanliness is paramount, or for those into semen fetishes. Risk of herpes, and other contact-transmitted diseases can be avoided by dry-humping.

Dry-humping is the term used when there is materiel between genitals separating them. Fully clothed, prolonged stimulation has risks of physical friction and chaffing. This is frequently the preliminary for frottage in the nude.

Penetration anxiety is something I encounter quite frequently, as gays usually describe themselves sexually by the terms "top", "bottom", and "versatile". This usually implies the desire to have penetration during sex. But what of those who don't identify to those limited terms? Terms such as "Oral only", "mutual masturbation", and the like carry stigmas of limitations to "real" sex, which is why many men use the term "top" to describe their sexual role in one word. Top implies that the man does not enjoy anal penetration, which fulfills part of the real situation by definition, but also implies the enjoyment of penetrating, which is misleading to bottoms looking for a good, thorough ass-fucking.

Until a better term is coined, "frottage" is the term I would like to hear from clients if that is what they would like to do with me. The word describes quite a bit for me, since this was the way I discovered the pleasures I can get with my penis as a young boy. But that is a story best left for a separate post!     

Showing Too Much?

Reading an email the other day, it was suggested that I show a little too much of my penis. He mentioned teaching a guy to charge $90 just to show his dick, nothing else. While that sounds very profitable, there is something that prevents me from adopting that approach. While I know that many of my dear readers may never come see me for an escorting session, for whatever reasons, I am pretty sure that if I was not an escort I would still be an exhibitionist.

Perhaps I am not as good as these other guys in the business in terms of revenue, but one thing I know is that the more money you ask from someone, the less attractive you become to them, which ultimately leads to feelings of being used just as a source of income. This is not a life-long policy, but it is a way of making more moolah.

My philosophy is that basing a relationship on trust and respect can lead to symbiosis, where total benefits for both are not limited to financial gain. Friendships remain when employment end, and escort-client relationships evolve to comraderie. This is where many of my past clients are, and that is something I am proud of.  

Inspirational Clients

Meeting an individual who, at retirement, decided to become a bodybuilder. It was a life-long dream for him, and as an executive he focused mainly on his office job. I met him before he started seriously training, so I was there from the beginning to witness his transformation over the span of over 7 years.

Bodybuilding is a hard sport. Mentally we must be strong to continue to challenge our bodies. Physically we must endure fatigue and aches as our body undergoes changes. And socially we make sacrifices to eat well and become a healthy example to all who know us. I started at age 16; he started at age 63. You may lower your eyebrows now.

Now, here is what you have been waiting for, the lesson we learn from his example. He continued bodybuilding, became a personal trainer, and won a few bodybuilding competitions by age 67. And he is still very much sexually active, of which hormone replacement therapy may most likely be attributed to. You must have enough desire for your goals to see them though, no matter what the obstacles (including age). But what is left once your dreams are fulfilled?

Dentures, an Escorts Delight!

The times when men smile with a naughty glint in their eyes as they look at me while slipping their full denture out of their mouth and under the pillow are sights to remember. The first time, akwardness. The second time you know what is coming, and gum jobs are the new crowd pleasers.

Everyone has a quality that can be put to good use. When many people want to hide the fact that they wear a dental prosthetic, some use it to their advantage in the bedroom.

To those who wear partials, those can be deadly! For my sake, if the dentist asks, go for the full denture!

While gum jobs have the potential to be great, they can also be not so fun. Loss of gum tissue can make bony protrusions. The answer lies in proper cushioning with the tongue, to cradle the penis and baste it with in-mouth saliva. A yummy treat indeed!

But to those uncomfortable with gummers, all you have to do is get out of your head and into the body, and let the gums speak for themselves!

Video Chat Model

I was wondering if any of my dear readership also pay to view web cam models. What I was wondering are the following:

-if anyone is interested in a following a show to control premature ejaculation

-if anyone is interested in a show where I demonstrate how to jelq and encourage my viewers to jelq along with me.

Theses are two sex-improving exercises that take about an hour to complete, at least a few times a week. A full demonstration from start to finish will greatly aid understanding in not to rush to the finish line, as can happen following text instructions.

I think that these are probably not seen very often as themes on webcam shows, but if there is enough interest I can make it happen on the most popular networks only. Web cam model is a job in itself, and with a handful of viewers it is much more worthwhile. Recruiting my own viewers from my blogs seems to be a natural extension, especially if I connect with a common subject of interest that is helpful and entertaining.

The three main issues for men (if there are any issues) as seen from my point of view as an escort are:

-premature ejaculation

-erectile dysfunction

-penis enlargement

Of course, the mental aspect of closeness, intimacy and true boyfriend experience is a challenge to convey via cam, especially on a broadcast. How can someone advertise these services without somehow feeling sorry for those seeking what should be free for most people? (Unfortunately, those in relationships can sometimes forget what benefits they are entitled to, especially when the 'honeymoon is over') Until I know the trick, letting my personality show through while empowering the individual to overcome what they feel needs improvement is the way to proceed.

Online Consultations (My Dream Job)

Yesterday I received payment via paypal for an online consultation. In a nutshell, the client had read a previous post on andropause and he needed information on finding a specialist within his area. I found doctors and resources to get him well on his way to male hormone replacement therapy.

You can probably tell that I enjoy researching, writing and helping people. Finding information is fun, but the big motivation to prioritize the search was the fact he paid me in advanced. I provided route maps from his zip code to the clinics, as well as access to a national andropause awaremess network in the USA. Since doctors listen for keywords on the psychological aspect of andropause, I mentioned to list various complains such as lowered libido (even though he thinks it is normal). There is no need for false bravado, as saying that everything is fine is a common lie men tell their doctors although struggling with maintaining erections at times.

Dig deep down, find real concerns as you age, and tell the doctor the truth (or ask your partner for observations). Loss of sexual vitality affects your sexual partners as well, so it is in everyone's best interest to stay in top hormonal shape if you want to continue with a healthy sexual relationship.

Although I am not a doctor nor a psychologist, I do consider myself a researcher. So any questions you may have I consider it a personal challenge to find answers for you. Of course, being a paid consultant is what I consider a dream job!

It';s Even Better With A Shared Meal

Recently I had a wonderful session to celebrate our 6 year anniversary with a client/friend. Like most of our sessions together, this one was for 3 hours. The surprise was that I prepared a meal for after the 3 hours, just to eat together for the occasion.

Just to be clear, the meal was not calculated as part of our time. When the situation warrants it, i do something special if my client mentions something about a significant date like birthdays or anniversaries. In any relationship, celebrating special dates is fun when importance of it is not overly stressed, but still considered important enough to commemorate. 6 years of association is a lot for anyone, and what it means to me is that I have reached a level of service where I want to go beyond what is usually called for (for an escort), but not all the time to the point I drive myself crazy. Just for special occasions.

But the experience was so different and fun that the idea has crossed my mind to offer the entertainment and dinner package to anyone who chooses the 3 hour package. Of course, since most will not be celebrating 6 year anniversaries with me, the time for dinner will be part of the three hours, not after. Considering the fact that I plan and cook the meal myself before the session, I think that all in all it is a good way to go for those special occasions, and it feels more like a date with a good friend than anything else.

The best part is getting to know each other better, which goes quite far when considering a potential life-long contact. Even when the escort/client phase diminished, friendship and mutual respect still form the basis of continued contact in a non-sexual relationship. Many former clients still call on a social basis, which pleases me as a person. But as a matter of professionalism I prefer to be contacted, rather than be the one to contact the other. Some associations are best left private and discreet.

Viva Los Loose Asses!

I have to confess a preference for fucking loose butts. This feeling of easily sliding in, all the way through on the first thrust is very exciting. The images of Tom of Finland drifts through my mind, his huge cock stabbing deeply into a eager and ready rectum. Here are some recommendations to get your hole 'Tom' ready:

1. Anal douche with warm-hot water. Be careful not to use burning hot water (Guess how I found out :-)

2. Finger sweep your rectum with as many fingers as possible, and loosen your ass to go as deep as you can with your hand. Get familiar with the internal structures, because that is exactly where my dick will go to mix you up like a mojito muddler.

3. Practice to loosen and tighten your sphincter (asshole muscles), because these are the muscles you will relax when you want to get penetrated.

4. Practice pushing and relaxing your  rectum muscles. These are your crapping muscles. Relaxing them allows for deeper, ass splitting thrusts.

The best position I find to be the most relaxing of all the anal penetration poses is when the bottom is lying flat on his stomach. His heels are allowed to fall to the outside, toes pointing inward on the bed. This leg rotation relaxes the buttocks and allows mental concentration to be centered on the anus. The top lubricates his penis, the bottom's hole and inner butt cheeks. Apply two coat of lubricant on these areas as the first coat tends to be absorbed by dry skin. The top ensures the the hole of his penis and the bottom's hole are in-line using his finger to locate the opening as the tip approaches for penetration. As the bottom feels the tip pressing into him, he presses his rectum out to open the anus and a smooth entry is ready to happen.

So there you have it in a nutshell, one possible scenario that I consider a sure way of success for anal penetration, for those who are not very comfortable getting fucked but wished they could enjoy it. Removing pain goes a very long way to enjoying lovemaking.

Ordeals of the Penis

The weeks go by as the last of winter is washed away by warm spring rain. Mating season has official started, and with intensity. Unfortunately this may cause some lovers to be overzealous and cause me more physical pain than pleasure, at least in my case. Although my dick is bigger, it is not invulnerable to death grips and teeth-scrapes. Why someone would squeeze a big dick twice as hard as an average size dick and think they were causing pleasure?

I rant about it because pain is a definite boner shrinker for me, especially when it is directed to my penis. It seems to be happening quite regularly, which warrants another blog post on the subject. I only ask is that people be gentle with penises in general, and your first reacting to touching one should be to hold and cradle it like something precious. Big breasted women probably feel the same way when their tits are treated like supermarket melons, to be squeezed disrespectfully as if they were not connected to a feeling person.

Now what I like is to be respectfully stroked and caressed, not pulled or bent or squeezed. I get more pleasure making love than rough sex, although rough is often the request of many new clients. Those who make slow passionate love with me have the greatest chance of seeing me again, as I have less anxiety seeing them than those who massacre my member. Rough sex makes me feel dirty, and the pain is not worth repeating.

As a prostitute, I am paid to have sex. As an escort, I am rewarded for the love I make. These are distinctions that help me define my profession, and to protect not only my body but also my sanity. Respect your partner and be prepared to be respected in return.

Love is everything!

Guilty Orgasms

I have seen my share of these, and even had a few of them myself. "Orgasm guilt" is left behind when passion and lust have been satisfied. Guilty feelings have many sources: adultery, self-pity, religious reasons, shame, and probably many others. Perhaps these post-orgasmic lows balance out the great feelings associated with sexual pleasure. But what I am more interested in knowing is this: are these guilty feelings necessary? And if not, how can this pattern of guilty feelings be broken?

I witness the transformation from pleasure to guilt even before the orgasm is finished (in some cases guilt sets in later near the end of the session). Some guys end the session at this point and leave. As I try to understand the situation, why would someone cut off the lingering pleasure of an orgasm? Do they know that ejaculation and orgasm are separate and different events (but usually happens simultaneously)?

But a more pressing question is this: are guilty feelings after sex a problem for the individual? If not, why bother fixing something that is not broken?

For me, I love seeing my guys happy. When they look guilty or ashamed, I can't help but feel like I'm the direct cause. I become the snake at the tree of knowledge, tempting "innocent" people into tasting my forbidden fruit. Part of me is happy to be desired in that way, and that part also wants to be happy seeing my partner happy. Everyone is different, and we all live in our own bubble. If I can't change the way some people feel after love making, then I only hope to cause more pleasure than grief.

On the most part, my guys seem to enjoy themselves, and so do I! My philosophy is simple:live in the moment as if it is the last time you will do it. Happiness is easier to achieve when we are grateful for what we have. So be happy after you come!

Andropause and Bio-T Blood screening

As many of my friends are over the age of 45, I find myself concerned about their sexual health as they enter this phase of their lives. Natural production of testosterone declines after a certain age, and there are symptoms associated with it. I found a very nice Canadian website called andropause.ca that not only helps men understand what it is and what the treatment options are, but it addresses the issue that most doctors are not familiar with this condition, including your family doctor. There is a list (by province) of doctors who specialize in andropause.

I mentioned andropause to a few clients (over age 65) who have complained about weak erections and lowered libido, a few symptoms of the condition. They mentioned it to their (female) doctor, who discounted the possibility without doing a blood test that measures the bio-available testosterone in the sample. I felt sad and compelled to provide an outside source of information and a list of sympathetic doctors (at least to my Canadian friends).

Men that I know who are on supplemental testosterone have more energy, more life, and enjoy more their visits with me. When sex hormones are balanced these guys feel better than normal, and fatigue never seems to get to them like it did before supplementation. They don't accumulate body fat as fast as before, and their dicks get as hard as a rock like it did before. Erection drugs like Viagra and cialis work better, and that aspect makes sexual activity less worrisome.

Worrying about getting erections remove the mental energy that is needed for letting go and having fun. But with preparation and participation in adjusting to the natural changes that occur to everyone that ages, sex can get better than you remember because of the appreciation factor.

You can fully appreciate something when it is gone, and when you get it back after some effort, you will never let it slip away again. Sex is something joyful that we must never lose touch with. But when sex does leave a person's life, people around you can tell. You should witness the subtle transformation my friends undergo when they leave my apartment. Simply put, it's a good feeling for everyone!

Ronielle in Almost Naked Briefs at the Bal en Blanc 2010

Sorry for the bad quality, it is from my Blackberry Curve 8330. I am in line to get in to the party, and there were a couple other scantily clad people in line with me. It was really fun, and I love when girls hug me to get a feel of it! I guess that it would be similar to the way straight guys like attention from gay men. The underwear is an Andrew Christian design, from the Almost Naked collection. These are the briefs in large white, made from 94% bamboo fibers and 6% spandex. A real thrill for an exhibitionist like me! The pouch felt so comfortable and light, really almost naked. Find it at andrewchristian.com

New Morning Gym/Sauna Routine for April

I came up with idea since I rarely took showers at the gym, and when a good friend and long term client found out, he suggesting setting a regular schedule for showering and sauna-ing, to have a chance to chit-chat with guys and to satisfy my growing exhibitionist-ism (man, I hope you understand my creative use of english!). So far so good; every weekday I hit the showers at 10:30am. Talked with a few people there, as the gym is quite dead at this time.

I am back to my more serious workout routine in anticipation for summer. Needless to say I can wait to take my shirt off and walk my dogs! But the hardest part to do will always be the dieting. Oh well, hunger will become a close friend once again. I know that my body is doing well when I stay a little bit hungry all day, but still eating but never until I'm full. It may be the toughest thing to do everyday, but as long as it works my clients and I are both happy.

It's funny how my obsessions fall neatly in line with my profession. Enlarging muscles, penises, sex, exhibitionism... Is it too much? I guess time will tell. But someone has to do it, right? Lol As long as I am able to maintain it until I die, I suppose!

Anyways, if you workout at Nautilus in the montreal village on weekday mornings, check out the sauna around 10:30. There is a good chance I will be there waiting to start small talk. See you soon!

Spring and Sexual Fantasies

Spring is here, and the rising of the essential fluids is bringing new life to winter wood. One thing I love about this time of the year is the way my libido seems to skyrocket, perhaps like an indicator of the sexual public. Bad, obscene thought pass my mind even while doing innocent things such as buying groceries and walking the dogs. My interest in public crotch-watching has increased as well, with some delightful new sights to enliven new fantasies.

Imagination is the heart of my healthy sexual appetite. I see someone who catches my attention, and I can immediately have sex with them in my mind. I creatively make scenarios to increase my pleasure, and the sky is the limit. Taboo and dangerous activities such as barebacking and internal cumshots are possible with strangers in the context of fantasy. And overcoming these real-life restrictions in fantasies are very exciting for me, since I have many desires but I am not willing to jeopardize my own safety and those of my clients while exploring uncharted territory.

Now, some of you may have heard my erotic stories in session, and a sure way of spicing things up is involving an element of risk to the fantasy. You can transport yourself to a time you were underage and the fantasy man is a super hero with a not-so-hidden sexual agenda. Or that you find yourself as fresh meat at the local jail; your cell-mate adamant in claiming his property.

Some guys have even more fun when they are degraded further in their fantasies. Being ridiculed for having a small penis is actually quite popular, even on the net. But it is usually accompanied by being ridiculed by a guy with a much larger dick, then pretty much forced to accept whatever abuse he has to offer. All for fun and games, and anything goes in fantasies.

Sharing fantasies is also risky, as I don't always want to feel judged when talking about my top secret imagery. So I have a tier-system of sorting fantasies: general, kinky, and sensitive.

General is safe: like telling someone you prefer blonds, or tits and asses, crotch-watching (my favorite sport!). Not much risk if anyone finds out your "secret".

Kinky is spicy; not everyone likes spice though. Sex with strangers, uniforms (cops, inmates, military, etc), forced sex and humiliation would fall in this category for me, as well as paying for sex. The big difference from general is that it could be too much information for many, and people may falsely judge you if they find out. The element of risk is increased.

Sensitive fantasies are almost never spoken out loud. The dark side of the force (to use a phrase from Star Wars) is where these fantasies call home. These are secret fantasies that can actually damage you if found by the wrong person. Pedophilia, bestiality, and fantasies that have serious legal implications in real life are best kept to one's self. Political careers can fall to one of these secrets. So powerful that it must not be shared, and one may regret sharing them. Obviously the extremely high level of risk is an aphrodisiac for many ambitious people.

So take a break during your day to savor a secret sexual fantasy. It is free, fun, and fulfilling. And have sex with your imagination! Remember: no limits.

Ronielle Ebook/scrapbook 2010

I have been working on a photobook project in the past months to put together all my blog posts and the collection of photos of myself in one single book. I sent it to photobookcanada.com for publishing in print form, which resulted in my book being rejected for objectionable content in both image and written form. My big plan was to make a few copies and try to sell them, since there were many photos in the book that had never made it on my blog or to print advertising. So I am left with the option of selling an ebook version that can be downloaded for a modest fee of $20 by paypal. Contact me if you are interested and I will make arrangements for you to download it in pdf format. It is 108 pages long with screenshots of my blog entries and filled with never-before seen photos from long-forgotten photoshoots.

The book can then be printed from your own printer if you prefer. The original intention of the book is to have a copy of all that I have written up to now in print form for myself, but now I am offering it to those who would like for themselves. If I could find a publisher that would print it for me, I would do it. Does anyone know a small, open-minded publishing company who would be willing to do it? Let me know please!

New Blog on Chemical Penis Enlargement

Hi to all!

I have started a separate blog for those interested in chemical penis enlargement. you can find it here at chemicalpenis.blogspot.com It is brand new, so please continue to look for more information in the weeks to come!

Many guys ask me how I did it, and most want to know what I measured before starting. Although I was a little larger that average at around 7 inches long by 5 inches around, I knew that I wanted one the size of big dicked porstars. Obsession led to results, which led to this new blog. Some old pics, some new pics, and some basic information on the process and where to find more information.

Check it out if you get the chance!

New review on Daddy's Reviews, Clients with ED

Hi everyone! Spring is around a corner and the heat is on, and juices are flowing. The title of this post says it all, and here is the direct link for those who wish to read it.

Daddy's Review of Ronielle

Let me know if this link stops working though, since it may get moved around as it is very new. I would like to thank Corn Dog for writing it; I really appreciate all the feedback (good and negative) that I get, since I have no supervisor to give me a performance report.

I would like to add that I did get a negative email this year from a repeat client, and that I took his criticism to heart. I doubt that he will return, but it is a lesson that I will never forget. Sometimes I forget the situation and am too casual and talk about my personal romantic life, something that many clients prefer not to hear. So in the future I would prefer not to talk of such things unless I am absolutely sure it would be safe to do so. Even after a decade of escorting, I never stop learning.

I had a lot of time to think about why I love escorting so much, and one thing is certain: the challenges are always changing and nothing is dull or monotonous. As many of my relationships age, different issues are encountered; issues not normally faced with first time sessions. One of them is gradual impotence of aging men. I meet many guys in their 50's and 60's, and over the years I notice changes in erection strength (hopefully it is not due to me! Let's assume it is not). The look of frustration as erections fail is a concern I had to face with even as a young escort in his early 20's. I knew that if I don't get hard with my client, then he may tell other escorts, and reputations are set. When I couldn't get hard, feelings of worry and frustration compound the problem: clients rarely called me back if I couldn't make it work. Even worse, some guys would yell at me. So yes, I can totally sympathize with those with erectile dysfunction (ED).

My adverse reactions to common ED pills like viagra, cialis and levitra include headache, and nasal congestion. They are expensive, and don't always work. Fortunately one of the injectables used in chemical penis enlargement is an ED drug called Caverject. So I kill two birds with one stone: with each client I have guaranteed erections that doubles as a penis enlargement treatment. No headaches (in more than one sense) and no nasal congestion. It actually is a little cheaper than pills, a big bonus.

While I took care of my occupational ED, many clients feel uncomfortable talking to their doctors about it. Many places online sell the pills, as well as on the black market. But that doesn't help those who do not take drugs. These guys eventually reduce sexual frequency until they give up altogether and blame it on the natural aging process of man. But it doesn't have to be this way.

Escorting on a long term reveals new problems to be considered and solved. And this, along with the sexual pleasure it brings me on a daily basis, is the biggest reason I love it so much. Evolution and change stimulates me, and keeping my guys happy keeps me happy too. Ok, enough mushiness. For now...